Oh hey, I quit.

Guess what? I’ve been unemployed for over a week. Wow. It feels really surreal saying that out loud (or typing it for that matter!). It’s still sinking in. I remember before I got sick, when my alarm went off it was such a struggle to get up and I’d lie in bed starring blankly at my ceiling wondering if I really needed the job. I’d daydream about the unemployed life and it’d leave me with a smile on my face… until I realise the reality is I have bills and responsibilities and I’m an adult (more like a bad-ult). Then I’d roll my eyes, grunt loudly and get out of bed. It was never easy and to be honest, it still isn’t easy.

But since being unemployed, I never thought that I’d actually miss my job and making money. Like seriously. I feel kind of like I have no purpose and that sort of makes me sad because I think as humans we need to have a purpose to feel somewhat complete.


So why did I quit my job? There were a number of factors that came into play and the decision wasn’t an easy one at all.  In fact, the thought never crossed my mind until my sister suggested I quit my job and move back home to focus on my health and getting better. So as you can see, health played a major part in my decision.

I loved my job. I loved what I was doing. But I found myself loving it less and less and feeling more and more unmotivated and that was because I was too busy thinking about the implications my health was having on my life. I couldn’t come to work so I was letting my team down and I wasn’t there for my stakeholders. I couldn’t design and deliver communications plans if I wasn’t there to understand a project and think of radical ways to market and engage with the audience. It also felt like there were some radical changes coming up in the organisation that could have a negative impact on my role and I. I also felt lost 99% of the time.

My mental health started deteriorating because my brain was on overdrive thinking about pain, letting the side down, not feeling inspired, wondering how I was going to pay my bills because I was on unpaid leave and wanting to literally give up because being optimistic felt 150% harder when you’re unwell. If you’ve read my ‘They’re definitely two of the hardest things’ blog, you’ll also know that I was trying to keep my emotions at bay (and failing miserably).

So yeah, I took the plunge and handed in my resignation. I left my flat and moved back to a small city to live with my parents. Yes, I’m 27 and I’m currently living with my parents.

I have days where I feel like it was possibly the worst decision ever particularly because it felt like I’d given up on my career. BUT deep down I know that’s not the case at all and I’m doing it because I’m focusing on getting number one (me!) better and ready for my next big adventure.

It’s hard when you’re an ambitious workaholic like me to go from spending ten hour days in the office to spending no days in the office (unless blogging counts as a day in the office?). But I know that this is possibly the best decision for me and when I’m doing better, I’ll return to the workforce, guns blazing and ready to conquer the world. Plus this gives me time to focus on the things I enjoy… like reading and writing (yay more blogs!).


Oh! You wanna know something funny? I was completing a food/stress diary for my nutritionist and it’s incredible to think that I haven’t been stressed out in the last week. It’s such a strange feeling to not be stressed, worried or upset about something. Methinks I could get used to this life.

Tell me, have you had to take the plunge and take some time off to focus on you?


Birthday edition

So guess what? Today I turned 27. Woot. Okay not really, just thinking about it causes pain in my groin. Why? Because it’s true what they say – the older you get, the faster time passes. To be honest, I’m not ready for life to go as fast as it is because I’ve got way too many things to do!

I also realised that since the inception of this blog, apart from my ridiculous life experiences I haven’t actually shared with you much about my interests and me. With that being said, I thought I’d take the opportunity to list down some things about me that equals the big 2-7. Ready? Here goes! (and check out the flowers I got!)

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5 lessons learnt

  • Loving yourself before loving others is actually quite important
  • Let yourself make bad choices and mistakes – it’s what you learn from them that counts
  • Alcohol is not my friend
  • Neither is fast food (but I still hang on to the hope that one day we’ll be friends…)
  • Always trust your gut (thanks dad!)

5 favourite podcasts

  • Casefiles
  • Ted Talks
  • History Exta
  • Myths and Legends
  • Sean Wes TV

5 essential clothing items

  • A good, chunky knit. I love throwing a knit on dresses. They’re just so cosy and casual and on these cold, miserable days it’s what I’m all about
  • A leather jacket – I think this is a must-have in everybody’s wardrobes. It’s cool, it’s trendy and makes you look super edgy no matter what you’re wearing!
  • A great oversized scarf/snood. Seriously, I love scarves specially ones that are oversized and feel like a neck blanket. You can lie on it and it feels like a pillow plus it keeps you warm and gives the casual chic vibe
  • A simple, statement summer dress – what I love about dresses is that you can still wear them in winter and all you need to do to keep warm is layer up. You can’t beat a simple, summer dress especially when it’s one that hugs you in all the rights areas
  • Comfy pair of heeled boots – I struggle when it comes to wearing anything with a heel for long periods of time but I recently came across a pair of plain black boots with an inch heel that’s so super, duper comfy and makes a casual outfit look less casual and more put-together and somewhat fancy. Plus, being a midget, any height I can add is an added bonus. Style, height and comfort – phwoar!

5 must visit countries

  • England including Scotland (hell yeah!)
  • Sweden
  • Croatia
  • Iceland
  • Russia

5 favourite books read in 2017

  • History of Loneliness by John Boyne
  • This House is Haunted by John Boyne
  • Flawed by Cecelia Ahern
  • Girl on the Train by Paula Hawkins
  • The Torment of Others by Val McDermid

2 favourite artworks

The Lady of Shalott by John William Waterhouse. Why do I love this piece of work? My goodness where do I start? It’s based on a poem of the same name by Lord Tennyson and I love the poem. It’s beautifully tragic. I also love her expression, I love how realistic the artwork is and I absolutely love the colour combination. Absolutely stunning. I think I might just cry if I ever saw it IRL.

The Raft of the Medusa by Théodore Géricault. Romaticism is my favourite art era. I love the poignant darkness and the emphasis on emotion and individualism. The painting itself is quite dark and gory and depicts the survivors of the Medusa shipwreck. While the situation is dire and desperate, it also depicts a glimmer of hope with two of the figures waving down what one hopes is a ship.

If you read the whole thing, congratulations and thank you! I really appreciate you making it this far and I hope you enjoyed the content. I’m really interested in getting to know you a bit better. Share something about yourself in the comments!

p.s. no I’m not going to get rowdy. I’m actually going to spend my evening in my warm fluffy PJs, eating home made pizza and studying. With a break in between watching My Kitchen Rules Australia. WILD ASF.

Check out my cake… it’s too pretty to eat…